Still Alive

Well I would love to post pictures of thanksgiving but that will have to wait till I can figure it out.
The big news of my life is I cut my hair pretty short. It was long, crispy and orange so I hacked it off. I don't know why I ever waited so long. The second big news is I have survived homeschooling the wild boys these 2 1/2 weeks. I have two more to go. I am totally wasted when I put my head on the pillow at night, and I have never been more thankful for my wonderful bed. I haven't folded any laundy in 2 weeks and one of the smaller children could get lost in the giant pile of clothes. I had to dole out the first serious discipline to the little guy yesterday when I looked out the window and saw him dancing in the road.

My poor hubby has been so busy getting ready to leave on saturday for the big defense trade show in Orlando. I figured out this morning that I probably won't see him for 9-11 days! UGH!
My sleep may improve with him missing since he's had a cold this week and seems to be enjoying experimenting making new sounds with his nasal passage.

Thanksgiving

It has been over a week since my life was invaded by 4 more little boys, all I can say is that God is good and his grace is enough for me. It has been a very good week homeschooling with a few attitudes and a few tears, but not from me. We are headed to my Mil house for lunch, my parents will be joining us there as well. I am very thankful this day just remembering where I've been and what I am becoming. The lord is truly good and my life has been blessed with many wonderful things, a good family and extended family, a wonderful husband, three fantastic little boys who are becoming men before my eyes, and a delightful little girl that awaits us. I met someone online that knows Dania Naomi and has spent time with her in haiti. She has told me that I am lucky to be getting such a great girl. I also am looking forward to meeting my new 21 month old niece Natalia is her name I think, but she will be called Lyra. Tonya hasn't posted any pictures yet so I don't know what she looks like.

This is our little Dania Naomi who is waiting for us in Haiti to bring her home.

The Final Countdown

Well tommorrow my house will be invaded by my 4 little nephews as their parents are leaving for the Ukraine for about a month, to pick up my new little niece. I am terribly excited to see who she is, but not nearly as gaga as my dear sil. I will have the boys everyday M-F from 9-5pm, then I will haul them to my inlaws to spend the night. The only thing I'm worrried about is trying to homeschool this pascal of boys and will my house ever be clean again, and do we have enough food in this county to take care of their appetites. I may be using this blog a whole lot in the next weeks to relieve my stress and mark the comedies that are sure to happen.

Lots Of Happenings

well the past week has been one thrill ride after another. First off I have finally entered IBESR that is the Haitian side of this adoption process. I will be in this process anywhere from 3 months to a year. Hopefully sooner since they have just appointed a new director. Then last tuesday my dear friend Mandi gave birth to a little girl who is in dire straits, we have been fasting and praying for them. Next my sister in law is leaving for the Ukraine to pick up her little girl and I will be keeping her kids for a good part of the 3 0r4 weeks she will be gone. Yesterday was election day and the kids and I stood out in the windy rain doing some last minute campaigning for our candidate. I'm sad to say he lost to the very liberal woman who held the spot. Oh and finally this is the most stressful time of the year for my husband and his business. He had an incredibly important meeting last wed and thurs that went spendidly. I even had to cook dinner at the last minute for one of the guys. I feel like I'm spinning, luckily the meds have seemed to regulated so I haven't had any more episodes.

Oh No!

Oh no is what I woke up at 4:30 this morning saying, when I realized I was about to have a panic attack. I haven't had one at home for no reason in a very long time. However after a lifetime of an anxiety disorder and 7 years of struggling I finally decided to take paxil. This is just ending my third week of meds and week one of the whole 10miligrams. I don't know if I am now just responding to the meds or if they just won't work for me. I prayed before I started taking them that I would find the right one, because I wasn't about to begin a science experiment in my body trying to find the right med and the right dosage. Feeling a little sorry for myself and yet I really really know God is good and he has my best interest, I just wish I would hurry up and learn whatever I need to so he could completely heal me once and for all.