I Can't Get Comfortable

I don't know if I ever recorded my thoughts on how and why we started the adoption of our haitian princess, but I want to never forget the stirring I felt from the Lord. I have always thought that I would adopt someday, I mean even when I was young I used to tell people I wanted a little black boy from haiti. But life happened and I had 3 wild boys, my husband had started his own paintball business, and we lived in a single wide 2 bedroom trailer. There was enough tension in me to launch a rocket into space. Life got busier and busier, and by the time we moved into the house we are in now, frankly I was happy, content, and comfortable with our life. My kids were all at the age where I didn't have to watch them every second, they could get ready by themselves, and we were enjoying a good life. Even though Tonya was in the middle of her adoption and I was excited by it, I felt content to wait until "the time was right" for us to start ours. But one evening near Christmas 05 I was sitting in front of the fire just thinking, and I heard the lord (not audibly) say to me, "don't get too comfortable." I thought about that for several days, what exactly that meant for me. I came to realize that the timing would never be perfect, that I could get used to the easy life, that my nature is to say "I can't", and I could never get so comfortable that when I felt God calling me I was to comfy where I was to move. To some people this will never be a problem, but for me it is a huge problem. If my robe feels good, I'll want to stay in it all day, if the bed feels good, I won't get up, if the family room is warm and cozy, I can sit in it for hours not doing anything, just not wanting to move. I can get comfortable really fast and not push myself to be all that God has created me to be. I shared all this with Nathan, thinking that I was going to push him off the cliffs of insanity, since his business had switched from manufacturing paintball products, to manufacturing products for the dept. of defense, and other military around the world. Thankfully he agreed right away and we got started a couple of weeks later. Sometimes I run into people who when I tell them all the above, they look at me and say "I don't know if that is a good enough reason to adopt." Honestly, I can't think of a better reason then that God asked me to stretch myself and we said yes. And of course I'd like to raise a daughter, and we have the means to do this, and yes God asks us to take care of widows and orphans. Now I can't wait for her to come home, and I'm terribly excited to see what kind of little person will grace our lives, but the beginning was feeling the stirrings of God rousing me out of a comfortable position. I know he will give me everything I need to do this job well, and frankly now that I'm up from my comfy position I realize how bored I get when I feel comfortable all the time.