Trials

The boys have been taking turns going to work with their dad so the school schedule is off these past couple of days. It is just as well though because I have been very busy trying to track down missing adoption papers. The US side is just as difficult as dealing with Haiti. The October status report came out Tuesday from my orphanage. Lots of kids came home last month and several more got out of MOI. Next to my name it was blank (meaning they didn't know where my paperwork stood) AAHHHHHHH!!! I should have been in MOI for the last 2 months but it appears I am still in 2nd legal. MOI is another stage of the adoption that can take 6 months, so I was really hoping to be whittling away at that one. To find out that I'm not even in yet was a blow that has bummed me out for a few hours, however since we are talking about Haiti anything is still possible. I have known of people that only spent 1 month in MOI, so we are still praying for a Christmas homecoming.

In dieting news I have lost 5 pounds but I quit the fad diet yesterday at lunch when I realized my spinach was slimy and you can't substitute one thing for another. Also Sunday night after the drama I forgot to drink tea or coffee with my meal so I might have screwed it up then anyway. I am still on a diet that is no sugar, and no flour so it is still pretty restrictive. I have no idea how long I will keep it up, but I have definitley been feeling pretty good these last 10 days, if you don't count being sick of eggs.

Last night while laying in bed I realized that these were just small trials compared to the grand scheme of things and that I should consider myself extremely blessed, which is hard for me to do. I tend to get knocked down by the small things not the things that are huge. I fight the battle well if I realize I'm in a battle, what happens to me is that all of a sudden I'm down and I have no idea how I got there. I've been feeling myself sliding this week but couldn't really put my finger on anything until I realized that God cares a lot about my attitude in these small trials and if I let myself off the hook for even a minute I am in trouble. It's no big deal if I can't eat sugar, it's no big deal if we put the dog down (we will survive) and it's no big deal when Dania comes home. Everything is in God's hands where they should be. AMEN!