My house is clean and Tonya and company are in town. We had a rainy day over at Nanny and Papas house yesterday where we sat by the fire, played Rummicube(sp) and ate. Today the party is at my house. We are hitting the high points with school in the morning and then getting together to have cousin time. I think I'll whip up potato soup for dinner tonight. I'm still trying to fit exercise back into my life and that has been hit and miss. Nate, the boys and I went for a brisk walk the other evening, but that was not nearly enough to raise my serotonin and cleanse me of cortisol.
Nathan is getting ready to be even busier than normal. He bought a new building in the industrial park in town and they have been moving this week. The new offices and warehouse look really good and it makes everything seem more professional. He is also working on some big projects and hoping to get some big contracts that would jump his business to the next level. All this is exciting but for someone like me it is also kinda stressful. I feel detached from church and friends, but I don't seem to have the energy to do anything about it. Church has been stale (no reflection on my pastor or the people, just me), my relationship with God is in some sort of strange circling pattern. I tend to cling to God and go, go ,go then say "I got it from here thanks" and then start to nose dive. You would think that by now I would have learned not to do that. The good news is that at least I recognize what is happening and I know that it isn't some long hard road back to him, he is still right where I left him.
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Dude.
I'm totally the same way right now spiritually it feels. I don't feel "far" from God, but I don't feel clingy or intimate.
ughhhh.
ps. gimme potato soup recipe. no wait. i still need to lose 4 lbs.
my counselor gave me a little article last night "struggling to rest"
these lines stood out for my anxious self that tries to measure myself, rather than just rest in my identity in him. they really encouraged me. I know what you mean. i felt like i've been in that pattern my whole life.
"I am supposed to rest in Christ,however at times i give in to the deceptive belief that if I gain control of all that affects me, i will acheive rest.
Rather than struggling to rest, I have realized that i am to rest within the struggle.This means I rest in the awarness that I am in Him. Nothing comes my way but that it finds me filled and sealed with the Spirit of God. Herein, I rest within the inescapable struggle."
Hi, I am just having a little extra time to read some blogs . I know what ya mean about having to stop thinking about politics. LOL, it will drive ya crazy. Come on over to my blog if ya get time so you can read my newest post! ;)
Hey Catrina! We should hang out soon. And I won't even make you watch some depressing Vietnam documentary! :)
Tia, but will we get to talk about my new BF Ron Paul, because that is all I want to do these day ya know. lol
Christy, you nailed it with control, if only everything would fall into place perfectly then everyhting would be perfect. (not )
Glady! Maura hates when I talk about religion and politics. I'm irish, that's all I know how to talk about! And is Ron Paul your BF or BFF, not sure which would be less disturning! :)
Oh I wanted to ask you. How does Nate feel about Ron Paul, becase Nate was full on for the war and us being justified going into Iraq, and Ron Paul ain't? What's nate's take now?
He likes RP a lot. The war is really neither here nor there for him. He is not cold just if we are at war he will be supportive, if not thats good also. He is more of a do what you have to do and get out guy. I think I am speaking correctly for him. He is very happy Saddam is no longer in power even though there will most likely be civil war, at least they were given the chance to have some sort of democracy. He likes his views on the debt and finances the best, and giving states more authority. As to my status with RP, BF best describes it for now, you never know, he could have some scary skeletons in his closet that just haven't come out yet.
I'm sure Nate also likes RP's stance on the 2nd ammendment. It makes me feel a little better knowing I can protect myself and not have to wait for someone else to show up. Especially with the way our county's E-911 system is going. I'm not sure they could find each other in this mess. It's early and I'm rambling. I've been craving corn chowder, since you're talking about the soup thing.
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